i deserve it..
i need nobody to pity me..
it's my own fault..
i juz wanna say something to those people who always support me
--i am sorry to make u all disappointed..
i need to be responsible for being what i am now..
don't be so kind to me..
it makes me feel even more guilty..
i need time to cool down..

whatever i am going to do for e nxt few days,
is juz to cover up my feelings..
to take up all my time,too
so that i won't have time to feel sad or whatever..

even if i am going to play,
i am nt feeling happie at all..
i nd time to really think what i should do nxt..