i think i am selfish..yeah..i shouldnt be tt bad..i should have think for my parents, too..they have their own consideration..hmm..i am okie now..tt's y can think more abt it..lol..i think juz now i am really have a mixed feeling..damn sad..tt's y can't think logically..smartly..

okie..now i am really alright..i told them tt i oso nd time to think again...okie..i shouldnt be complaining right now..i should be grateful liao..some ppl dun even have money to study...'n now i have completed my a lvl...i should be very happie for tt..i shouldnt have ask more than that..

i wun force them too...there is still room for discussion abt tt....although i really feel like gg there..but if really cannot..i oso will try to understand it...i wun say tt i die die oso muz go there..i am a person who can think ..when i am in a gd mood haha..nt when i am in a bad mood..

okie...my mum juz called again..they have given me lots call within this hour..hmm..now they say tt they will support me..despite having their own consideration....

this makes me even more guilty..really..i feel so bad...y muz them treat me tt good??? 'n till now..i dun think i have contribute anything to them...

i think i am really confused now..dunno wat to do..

juz now when i insist..they tell me abt their problems...'n now..when they say they will support me..i told them tt i nd time to consider again..cos i noe abt their probs..abt their consideration..tt's y i think i shouldnt insist...argh..i feel really confused now..

somebody help me????

i am in a total lost now..okie i cry real easily..juz now when i insist ..i cry cos i think my dream is shattered..but now when they say they'll support me...i cry again..cos i am too touched...i juz dunno how to stop crying now..so many things happen..

how i wish i have a shoulder to lean on now...to share my prob..to help me think..so tt i dun have to crack my brain so much...i am really really tired...i want to stop all these...if only i nv think of gg there at all....i guess all the probs start from me..'n now i have to think of a way to end all this..