my heart is damn heavy right now..real heavy....juz now my father called 'n explained things to me..explained to me abt their consideration...okie..i am holding my tears while listening to my parents talking on fone..i am damn sad right now..seriously hurt....i noe wat they mean lar..but frankly speaking..i have put all my hope there liao..this is a mistake i admit it..because i take it too seriously..now i am badly hurt...

i am crying while listening to the phone lar..but i try to sound calm...so tt they wun noe how sad i am in reality...i am crying right now okay...my parents asked me to reconsider again...

weird...now how i wish tt i wont be accepted in the local uni..really..so tt i can pursue my real interest..so tt i dun have to think tt much...my parents said tt if i can get in local uni..they don't wish to see me go there study...but i dunno..i really wanna go there no matter whether i am accepted in local uni anot..haiz..maybe studying here oso wun be tt bad..i juz leave it to fate ba...if i can get in local uni..den tt's it..i cant go there..cant pursue my dreamz..but tt might be a blessing in disguise too..

i am really badly injured..i dunno wat to do now..maybe i juz have to wait 'n see...leave it to fate...i cant do anything right now too........haiz....

i am cooling down now..maybe i should really think abt it again..yeah..still have lots things to consider..i should really cool down.....'n think calmly...