y muz gimme hope 'n crashed it again after tt??????????

haizzzzzzz.....i have put all my hope there liao....when i am already mentally prepared for it..now...i can only sigh..i really dunno how i should react at this moment..i feel like there is no paradise..i feel like no light, no hope in front of me............it's all juz a dream i think..maybe i juz have to stop dreaming...stop aiming too high..............maybe i juz have to be wat i am now..juz stick to the old life................................

haiz..feel damn depressed now....i have a very mixed feeling now...really ...i think i nd time to cool down..i really really........i feel like my life has juz stopped here..tt's the end......

i think i really nd somebody to guide me.........