nope..i don't really look forward to my birthday this year..i don't know why..didn't even realise that my birthday is coming also..not until i realised that it was only 4 more days to my birthday on thursday..time really goes very fast..

2 more days and i am going to be 20..oh my..a '2' in front of the age seems very old hor..yeah..how i wish time can stop or just let me go back to those days being a little girl..but it's so impossible 'n so, i decided to just cherish the present..live life to the fullest..

didn't feel myself as an adult, even though my life as a teenager is almost over..haha...maybe because of my thinking 'n things that i do..just not mature enough to be an adult..still so childish..really..

haha..used to envy the adults when i was young..envy them for the freedom they have..envy them for being able to be independent..'n i wished i could grow up faster at that time..but now..well, as i've said..i can't turn back the clock or let it stop..time passes, people get older and older..

actually i should feel very blessed to be born to this world, being able to live healthily and happily, being able to celebrate my birthday every year..imagine there are still a lot of people outside there, born in the country where there are wars going on all the time, starving, having diseases and sicknesses, couldn't live their life in peace and hoping to lead a normal life just like a normal people should have..

well, i really think that we should do more for those people ..do something that we can to help them..in any ways..even a prayer will do...

and of course, i have to thank my parents the most..i am here because of them..they are the one who provide me with everything that i need since i was born..food, education, a complete home..having read those articles about the children born in a family which have a lot of problems, made me cherish everything that i have even more..

k lar..think should stop here first..no matter what your past is, just cherish the present, cherish everything that you have now, cherish the people around you..that's the most important thing in life yeah..live life to the fullest..live life as if there is no tomorrow..